Hello friend’s I wanted to post a memory from my school days, the first heart break of my life.
But I couldn’t jump into that, well this post is a kind of bridge which will lead to heart break.
Let’s start with how my behaviour was towards girls as a kid.
I guess this was in my first grade where we used to live in a neighbourhood. All we kids used to gather in a ground nearby every evening to play. Raju, who was older than all of us, said to me that sandhya is his darling and everyone should respect her. The word Darling was catchy and I instantly added it to my vocabulary. The next thing I’ve done is going to Kalyani, who happens to be my best friend then (@sreenu she is also a bamber) and told her that “Kalyani you are my darling and don’t talk to anyone except me”. I had no idea what it meant , but I guess she did because she became furious and started running towards my house yelling “aunty”. I thought this was the end of me. Back then I had daily routine of being hit at least 3 times a day by my mom. So naturally it scared the shit out of me. But to my surprise my mother just ignored it. Love you Mom.
“Kalyani you missed me sweetie”.
Now I was in my third grade. Same as all kid’s of my age I knew nothing about girls except for something about their anatomy. I was new to the class and succeeded in making good friends. Being a good student I’ve become popular in the class. This made me arrogant and I started being all authoritative with other students in the class. One day there was movie aired on TV and it’s a famous movie named “ANNA”, which means elder brother in Telugu. The hero character in the movie influenced me a lot. The next day in school I was behaving like the hero from the movie. In break time I started to command everyone to call me “anna”. There was this girl in the class named “Sravani”, she was very cute. I liked her a lot, I was not aware of what these feelings are. But when along with everyone she called me the word, I couldn’t take it. I told her that everyone except her should call me “ANNA”. I wish I could talk to a girl the same way now. The next day at home my father called me and asked “Why should the girls call you anna?” I forgot to mention something, throughout my childhood I was terrified seeing my father. Later I’ve learned to live with it. Anyhow I’ve got some of this from my father “pārthāya pratibodhitāḿ bhagavatā nārāyaṇena ".
Later I found out who compromised my identity to my father(she was “Nikhila”, also one my B.tech class mates).I couldn’t forgive her all these years. I had to stop all of it after my dad explained to me what would happen if not. Well he had a point guys.
Nothing changed between me and sravani. She used to smile at me all the time. I used to be around her trying to talk to her as much as I can. This went on for some months. One day in the middle of year entered “Ramya” into the class. God she was an angel. I couldn’t take my eyes of her. Things started getting weird, I wanted to talk to Ramya too, and even she used to smile at me. Then I understood one thing, girls smile - Danger !!.
Chaitanya, was my best friend those days. We used to go to tuition daily. One day on our way back home from the tuition, I got a crazy idea. I asked Chaitanya to come with me to some place. When we finally reached the place I told him that we were standing in front of ramya’s house. He asked me “how do you know it’s her house?” I told him that I was following her after school and that is how I found the house. I asked him to yell with me,”Ye Ramya pilla bayataki ra, I like you”. This continued for few days after which I learned that her father is in military. I do not know why but I got scared and stopped visiting her. I cannot even think how upset she might have been.
With these mixed feelings for both the girls the year came to an end. I was planning on deciding who will be my girl in the next class. But it was too late. Thanks to my dad we moved to a different place and before I knew I was in a different school.
Sravani and Ramya, things would have worked out between us sweet hearts if destiny did not us drive us apart.
On the bright side most wonderful phase of my life started life at “St.anns” high school. This is where I have grown so much psychologically. This where I entered my adolescence, this is where I found my first true best friend, this is where I understood about male-female relations, this is where I thought I understood love. And the most beautiful thing of all these is where I met …………To be continued in Heart Break
